I'm Tired

I'm done. I'm a teapot ready to be poured. It has been about 14 months since we had a finalized version of the script, and we still haven't shot any scenes. There are plans to start again this weekend, and I'm not complaining. This all came about after a recent talk with Nick. He wanted a final version, one that included all of the revised/insert scenes melded into one continuous copy of the script. I figured this would be a good opportunity to go in and polish up the rest of the script while I was at it. Whoops.

It took me a few days to reformat the script into a script-writing program Nick wanted to use (I write with an OpenOffice.org Writer template), and for the two days after I had tried to polish up lines of dialogue here and there, and make the action lines cleaner. I hit a point of frustration, though, where it just wasn't working, and I wasn't sure why. On the third day, however, I understood what wasn't working. The problem was... it didn't NEED to be changed.

I grew quite a bit during the writing process, so the opening scenes are weaker than the closing scenes and re-written scenes. It's not bad, though. I'm completely proud of the script as it is now, and altering it just wasn't necessary. My problem is that my mind doesn't stop. I have sat with this script for over a year with the knowledge that we'd eventually shoot it - but that moment still hasn't come. So, my mind is left to consider the script in every minute detail and of course I'm going to find little faults here and there. It's nitpicking, for sure, but I have been with this script for so long that I simply couldn't avoid it. I have re-written or created 6-7 scenes since the final version was printed, and they are all very strong additions, but by now I have to let it go. I decided that it was time for me to officially put the script to rest, with my blessing. So, this truly is the final entry that should wear the Writer tag.

At least, for now...